So I might have Asperger's Syndrome. I told my doctor that my sister thought I had it (thanks sis, for the excuse!) and his reaction was pretty much "yeah I thought of that..."
That makes it likely, right?
Anyhow, I have to go back to the bright lights and hideous music of work tomorrow. I do visual merchandising for a clothes shop. Since I started crying for no reason and had to leave early on Thursday, I really hope I can handle it and don't embarrass myself.
The only trouble is if I do have it, what happens then? My mother already spends a large portion of her time telling me how to interact with people properly (remember to ask people how they are). If I get a diagnosis, will I be able to get away with being a bit weird because there's a reason for it, or will it call for even more intense trying-to-make-me-normal lessons?
People even say I'm not weird in a bad way. They think I'm funny and eccentric. If it's because there's really something wrong with my brain, I don't think I should have to pretend to be normal all the time. It's exhausting.